Psychology War

Be it the internet or the reality world, people with brains will sure take a couple or more thoughts, trying to unveil their intention, receiving negative outcome will be naught like as good as perfect..
Some say that their behavior in internet varies greatly with theirs of the reality, some even claimed that they're like as mentioned.. In my opinion though, what the "internet person" did is the true nature of a person.. Why? Because human ought to do something that only their bravery allow to do so.. Under a pressured atmosphere(reality), they tends to have the resolve, but they don't have what it takes.. On the other hand though, they are free to do as they please.
Ever watch the news regarding the Chinese citizen who submit a vulgar comment towards the gov in the internet? Do you think he has the guts to perform the same option(in reality) as he did in the internet? I doubt very much of that..
Just my opinion... When 2 person quarreling each other(in internet), who do you think has received most of the offense? it's the person who sent the last messages.. Well, quarreling isn't a necessity but due to a certain circumstances, the same principle stays applied.

The message is, if you want to see a person's true nature, do so in the world called "internet".
Hypocrisy is unevitable

SPM's First Week

lol to Farouq




Everything starts out fine but the atmosphere was awkward, as if spm examination is to be taken lightly-kind of atmosphere....and that atmosphere seems to overwhelmed me....

During the last 2 days before the exam start, I joined a malay group and went to their "secret" area, whatever that is.....to spend our time, capturing images.. more? I can't think of any.. It was raining and we play under the fall...And so.. our condition isn't as what we want it to be.. I don't really care though.. I once claim that i lost interest in study, well that's simply an involuntary spit coming from my mouth...

For Bahasa Melayu, I've no idea what to write so I simply 'scratch' anything that extracted out of my mind, intuitively..
English? haha... It's a nightmare.. Reminiscing the past, I think of abandoning the paper once.. But it's spm, who'd be stupid enough to do that? So again, I 'scratch' everything.. By that, I can't write to my fullest..
History's a comedy, I didn't study much and only do so at the current day of the exam..Typical;A last minute study method..

What will be the result of it? We shall see soon enough.

Bogus Relativity

Observing is fun, especially when It's something related about the observer itself.. Sure, that include me. I once write about a person that use certain thing as a subject to approach someone they want, I'm not surprised, It's up to the listener to consider the truth within such bogus statement.. I don't know how to say it in English,"Fitnah".. Just a short note, spoiling other people's pride means spoiling yours as well.. How do I know this? I wonder why as well?
I'm a pawn and a bait at the same time, if I'm caught and killed, you'll be safe and assured, if the opposite happens, you'll dive in as well.. You tell false story about me to other, just for the sake of invaluable information....
Just don't think I'm stupid enough to remain unknown..

I'll be watching,even when you talk, sms or other....

The Endless tick Meet its End

It's approximately a week for D-Day, SPM examination day. What would a typical person act when they came to such realization? I'm pretty sure most of you get the flow of it. For me, I expect nothing unlike it...but something seemed to bother me~I'm no longer interested in studying. What the hell? It's a stupid excuse for a student who spent almost every time of his/her life, enhancing and furthering their knowledge. I'm envy the person who has such mentality of not giving up, and proceed with full determination.
2 weeks before the exam(current week) is my playday, games, chess(hey,I won against Shafwan,lol*note that I can't even count how many times he has his triumphant victory against me*),mmo.....can't think of any other. Teachers said that the typical physical state of me at school(weak looking,fatigue,sleepy?) is due to my hardworking 'late-night study'. I turned and chuckle....why would they think of that? I don't think I have great grades.. btw, it's "teacherS", lots of 'em..
Anyway, to any Form 5 students....lets just get this over with....the exam I mean -_-

*Late Night is the best time to think about how life can be carved and forged,altering it for the better*...study? I rather drink a cup of coffee and play with my cat..

ps;S, I thought you want to lend me your songkok?

Our Procrastination Unfolds

The main point of our sleepover at Zakuan's house is to devour the fruit of knowledge. I knew since the beginning that it's impossible....the night was filled with entertainment, games and others. I can't stop myself from playing The Elder Scroll IV:Oblivion,best game I played so far. F and Z slept soundly, F made a weird sound and Z snore like a beast in starvation, lol that's just a metaphor, no offense =,=.. S sleep of about 4.ooam,can't get his hand off Starwars:Battlefront II.. As the dawn shows its colours,I owe Z's brother who woke me at 5.55am aprox.. Funny, I slept quite late and woke earliest.. Done with the Solah, everyone followed in sequence. It's already 8 and everyone was wide awake except for S who continued sleeping, we even shouted at him...he won't budge, lol.. The day continued as S watch Code Geass:Lelouch Of The Rebellion R2 for straight 11episode, he dominate the notebook for the whole morning, I joined him anyway~"Bapak die, aku tak mandi lagi" he uttered..lol

Throughout the whole day, I get to see the real colour of 'em~my mere acquaintance. They called their gf(they claim that it's) with this "gedik" behavior, even shouted in the room, for response of their gf tease and slight jest. Typical response, It can't really be explained in words.

Anyway, I had this hamper received from the Pengawas Hightea event, I owe them a lot....but no one wants the hamper at my home =,=.. So thank you to "Tauke Burger" for making me feel 'not guilty'..

ps:Re; you think I'd fall for those?

Note:F isn't Farouq =,=

Self-scattered Fragments

*freak post*

Lately, a blunder thought came up to my mind, such thought ate myself till I behave unlike the older days.. Am I cursed? Laughing like an idiot, frequent talk, and asking for help, I don't think such behavior exist in my dictionary of life.. If only I could dispose "consideration" and "kindness" out of it, I'll be able to experience like without hindrance and obstacle.....
So please, if there's anyone that's close to me, don't think you're "that" close, and don't claim that I'm a friend of yours, I never had any.. If you carefully observe, I had never use the word "friend" in this blog.. I'll act unlike any other if you came to be my close person.. As for my side, I'll regard it as business, mere relationship will probably ruin the plan ongoing.. Precious it might be, destiny decide its period ...probably..my brain can't even catch up with that..
Even the test results are gradually decreasing... I expect A for naught and that era of my exellency has deteriorated... Even the additional math test paper was left blank,literally blank.......I used to enjoy observing human's body language upon reacting each other....detecting their truth and false.For the current time though, I can't really tell what're they babbling about.. I guess my mentality really downgraded from before..

This week's an atypical week for me, I lost my songkok, and went to school with this cheer-lalala attitude with a bad hair, i don't care about the appearance, I just want my songkok!.. The art exam was fun, I can't stop my hand from my first watercolour artwork, though I didn't prepare at all.. The biology exam was the period where I sketch the rough idea of it, again, another blank paper passed up.. The sunlight struck me hard that I can no longer enjoy the view at the woods..
I ended up not posting any picture in blog ay? I'm not really into blogging, but sometimes it bothers not to write something while I've an internet access at home.. =,= perhaps i'll stop at the end of the year,this doesn't sound promising, I believe myself...we'll see.. Lots of memories anyway..

Whatever~~~ Losing ourself is quite a popular event amongst human, however, I' believe the principle of Yin-Yang exist in every human.. We're always balanced, right?take care~

Recent

Eid ul-Fitr last for 3 days but kids came bother us at the day after it's supposedly held.. Honestly, it's a nuisance, don't their parent teaches them about this, or perhaps both of them are unaware of this..
At the first day of the festival(Eid), I didn't have a chance to rest well and was forced to do something i really not used to, *apologizing each other*.. Trying to avoid the camera was impossible as they force me to join them, well, for some reason, I'm thankful to that.. 23rd Sept was the date I first see the sky(perhaps), and I'm not shocked to receive none of the wishing or whatever they call it.. I receive a call from someone that I think I'm close with, I choose to ignore it, the call repeated of about 4times, I don't know if they wanted to invite me in their convoy, but I once claim that I hate groups of people, I'll try not to lick those words back......the call continues.....
Most of my kind loves to celebrate this festival, i guess.. there's also an sms i received from an unknown number saying "YEAH! Esok raya!Esok raya! OMG"....I know he/she's exited over the current event ongoing but he/she should learn how to behave properly and express with -green- manner..
This post is a quick one, any misspelling will be ignored.

There was once a person claim that his blog receive more visitor compared to mine, and filled with many comments and all that shit(proud of it too,lol)..
there's 2 difference between me and that person, He advertise his blog throughout the whole place, I'll choose to stay discreet..

I'm not good with gratitude words, just get the idea of it, if your brain's capable to reach though~